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Present, or Absent?
A day later I am still the same — lost in my thoughts of what is lost and what more will be fought. I go about my way, grind coffee reminding me of the Colombian girl and her Bangladeshi boyfriend. Are they still together? Both countries have lost so much, they have found love under the coffee trees flowering. I have been spiraling down; caffeine was not helping. Even the new flavored tonic water that Big Basket delivered was unable to lift my deflated self. We watched ex-M
anasuyaray
May 233 min read


The New Dawn
Tail-in-your-mouth Series #1 Up-down, left-right, back to the home screen, a fidget spinner would help you think, I do not think so, the titillating events that keep happening or is it my imagination, I know it is more doomed than that, but that is not how it is presented, it is always dished with a dash and a speck and a drop and then hundreds of exclamations in the comments, very appetizing — believe me, even when you are on the strictest diet, I wonder if there is a suppor
anasuyaray
May 202 min read


Colors in grey
The reversals It is seven fifteen, A tells me. We are both awake as the noisy neighbours from adjacent rooms knock at each other's, calling for 'mummyji' or enquiring 'ready ho gaye kya'. A draws away the blackout curtains but it is only the blobs of white light globes from the street below that glow; the sky hasn't lightened up at all above the Fulham Public Mortuary that overlooks our hotel. We are in London, a few days before Christmas, and my son tells me how the air feel
Suvarup Saha
Jan 1111 min read


The slow line
One could choose the onward journey for speed and precision, but the return might still be on the slow line. A return for documented identities and paraphernalia, however temporary. And then one might see the sunburst of oranges on every house tree, the peeling paint of Ovar and the shine of Cacia as a return north from the sweet Aveiro is ordained. One must stop at Espinho for the mirth that beauty brings. This is where one will find her face between the handrails,
Suvarup Saha
Jan 111 min read


By the Thread
You are the only crack I can snort. The only bubble of oxygen I draw in. You are the last prayer my beads can count. You are the last leaf I have painted for myself.
anasuyaray
Dec 16, 20251 min read


Notes from a market where I had nothing to buy
You get down at Chickpet metro station instead of K. R. Market, to go to K. R. Market Apparently this where it all began - four bulls running in four directions as Hiriya Kempegowda laid the foundations of Bengaluru in the territory marked by the spots where the bull runs ended Yelahanka in the North and Domlur in the east had existed event before the wooded middle became Bangalore The appetite of the city is on display in the mounds of fruits that you will walk past - the ap
Suvarup Saha
Dec 12, 20252 min read


Heart Stop
Levitating I had gently dozed off reading Chekov's The Nose, observing the choice of adjectives to describe our 'major' Kovalyov, the...
Suvarup Saha
Sep 1, 202514 min read


Searching
She broke herself into shards—pieces so sharp they pierced and bled. Yet she went on, gathering them one by one, arranging and...
anasuyaray
Aug 26, 20251 min read


The Pond of Becoming
The path that wound out of secret gardens smelled of adventures. Little G, skipping past rosy bushes, danced to the music of unseen bands...
anasuyaray
Aug 22, 20252 min read


Self-Love
Something is broken— can you feel it too? I didn’t hear the snap though— did you ? That evening when we watched Beef — they were having...
anasuyaray
Jul 24, 20252 min read


The Good Girl
No matter how much you resist, there are days when love settles— like the thick, bitter sediment at the bottom of a coffee cup, the one...
anasuyaray
Jun 30, 20252 min read


The Kiss
A sultry afternoon— when sweat pools beneath your arms, a slow, nauseous psychedelia. Light fractures off the tarred road, glistens like...
anasuyaray
Jun 11, 20252 min read


We Rise
All the blacks got washed today. She soaked them— in warm, lukewarm water— gently. They puffed. Slowly they rose. At...
anasuyaray
Jun 8, 20251 min read


खोई हुई हँसी
बहुत ज़ोर से हँसती हो, बाप रे ऐसा कहाँ ससुराल में... पहली बार जब बहू बन के आई थी वो। अचानक से चुप हो गई थी उस दिन। शादी से पहले कई बार उस...
anasuyaray
Jun 7, 20251 min read


The Final Journey
I felt numb— like a carcass, limp and graceless, laid on a slab of ice. A taxidermist hovered— clinical, exact, scraping away the...
anasuyaray
Jun 7, 20251 min read


Waiting
I waited— for Eternity , for Love , for that soft touch that grazes the blades of grass, like dew on a cold winter night— quiet, tender,...
anasuyaray
Jun 4, 20251 min read


We'll wait for our fate, 'cause nobody owns us baby
Bookstores overwhelm me all the time in a way a library doesn't. Inside the aisles of a library, I find a sense of continuum that is...
Suvarup Saha
Jun 3, 20253 min read


The Only Home Known
The morning news broke gently, like frost on glass: Ten people injured in downtown Boulder— raising their voices for Israeli hostages in...
anasuyaray
Jun 2, 20253 min read


In the Silence, We Knew
Clad in his crisp kurta with just a hint of pink— a pink stolen from the flamingoes I once saw gliding the altiplano laguna of Chile—...
anasuyaray
Jun 1, 20252 min read


Downcast Downpour Days
when you are withering from the inside, who holds you? is it the polar easterlies, that beat down your body thread by thread— take your...
anasuyaray
May 29, 20251 min read
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